My world has been turned upside down... life and art as I have known it... may be a lot different in the future... it feels like drowning right now. Like I am breathing water and pretending to be a fish. Cough it out and try it again. Prepare the resume. My head is pounding. I could of almost tasted my dream. Burned on the stove, oven, fireplace, bonfire, too close to the sun. Hot molten lava slipping down my spine. Stand up straight, never mind the wreckage.